Remembering Her: A Soul Embodiment Journey

Foreword You know that voice inside that keeps calling at you? Yes, that one, the one that whispers softly, mostly… yes, the one that when you pay attention makes you feel like you know with certainty what it’s whispering about; that inner knowing that keeps interrupting your thoughts even when you want to push it away. Well, THAT VOICE, I didn’t listen to it…and it almost killed me. When you are being called it’s like a tidal wave that you are trying to stop with a wall of Lego bricks. It’s unstoppable, it will do whatever it needs to do to make you pay attention, and furthermore, do something about it. This is what I know for sure, that if you don’t answer to that calling, if you don’t listen with attention so that you can decipher its meaning, if you don’t embrace the invitation and you keep staying put, or worse pushing it away, it will make you implode. It will do everything it can to call your attention and it will do it with what IT has at hand, guess what that is? Let’s put it this way, your soul is connected to your body and mind, therefore the tools with which IT can call for attention is by doing something with or to your mind and/or body. Are you getting the meaning of what I am saying? I also know that each one of us, you and I, your neighbor (yes, the grumpy one), and every single one of us, alive on Earth at this time, is here with a mission. If you are here now it’s because there is something you have to be or do and there is no more time for waiting. Let’s say that my own sacred purpose has me writing this book because in the infinite field of beautiful and magical synchronicities, it is my role to poke you, to nudge you, so that you listen to that little (or maybe big by now) voice inside. This is why I wrote this book, so you too can find your purpose with crystal clarity, so you too can embrace all of who you are, with your quirks, your rainbow colors, your unicorn qualities, because in order to live your purpose you will need to embrace all of who you are, all-of-you. And you will have to want to dismantle your belief system, be rudely radical in tearing them down. Are you ready? I sure hope so because I am planning on taking you on a very fun, wondrous and meaningful ride! Chapter 1 There is no such thing as inebriating as that moment when we understand how powerful we truly are in our ability to cocreate the life we desire. Not in theory. Not in imagination. But in real-time manifestation. That moment when we start experiencing the result of having figured out one of the many manifesting keys when our life starts taking new form… is exciting, is bubbly, is stunning, and is also bliss, magic and electrifying… the energy is vibrant to the point you may even hear the sound of it crackling in the air. That is how my life is now, now, now, now. But it hasn’t always been like this, in fact for most of my life it was not. Something happened that changed everything and I want to share my story to inspire you because there is nothing special about me, other than I was blessed with figuring out one crucial key of life as a human experience. It is time I’ve the courage to say it out loud…. without fear of breaking the spell: “I am fulfilled, at ease, living in grace. I wake each day in ease, immersed in the life I once dreamed of.” No, this does not mean life is “perfect” from a “checklist” standpoint. You know how society wants to know …. Love: check Sons: check Family: check Health: check Money: check Work: check… It is not such thing, because for me in this NOW moment it is not necessarily a check - check - check moment, and herein lies the magic. It is about knowing my reason, knowing my why, knowing that am living my purpose, that I am here through a lifetime of choices, whatever they might have been, without judging them good or bad since these choices have brought me here, to this breath, to this moment, to this chapter of my soul, to this now, with my joys and my pains. And here I stand, having stepped fully into the seventh decade of walking the earth…no not seventy, but in my sixties, mind you I wake up serene, at ease, in deep trust, and most importantly in love with life, even when it stretches me. I have full awareness of the unique gift that it is to be in the body on Earth at this time where the veil is so thin we can access the multidimensional existence with ease. Yes, I am being stretched. And YES most likely just like you, I am being hit by waves of transformation, mutation, manifestation, grief, growth, and then waves of beauty so fierceless they leave me breathless. Each wave: a teacher. Each wave: a reminder of how vast the field of co-creation truly is. I receive the gift of touching the ineffable diving for a moment, sometimes a split second and it’s more than enough to propel me forward. I have experienced depression through hopelessness, shame, abuse and overwhelm when no solution seemed possible. I have endured anxiety attacks when fear was so strong it ate at my solar plexus and ripped my heart as I stood over the precipice not yet having learned that the only solution was to let go completely and trust. Unable to do it I was gripped by the iron jaws of fear. I have stood at the edge of the unknown, terrified to let go, and yet unable to keep holding on.