The Whirlwind (December 2010 – March 2011)
Crawling on my hands and knees, I barely made it through my mother’s front door and into her spare bathroom. My mind was racing as I projectile vomited the lunch I had eaten in the car on my drive from Denver to Cedar Rapids. My head felt swollen and foggy. A migraine that enveloped my sinuses, mouth, and forehead had me spinning and aching. My ears were ringing incessantly. My vision by now was blurred, and I could barely stand the light in the room. Bizarre prisms were flashing in my left eye whether it was open or closed. None of this had ever happened to me before. I laid on my mother’s bathroom floor unable to function, wondering, “what in the world has happened to me?”
I was able to stop vomiting and made my way into her spare bedroom. I crawled under the covers. A thousand pictures cycled in my mind and I was unable to stop them. I felt unbelievably strange. A sadness surrounded my head and mind like a heavy fog. I began to cry. I laid in bed while my mom held me. I wanted my life to end, as I had experienced unexplained symptoms for over three months. This was the first moment in my life where I distinctly felt like I just wanted out of this mess. My body was shaking and my anxiety was high. My mom gave me half a Valium and held me while my body calmed down. I looked up at my mom and told her, “Mom. If I die tonight, I want you to know that I love you.” After the effects of the Valium washed over me, I fell into a deep sleep. It was the first night in two months that I slept through the night. Being home with my mom meant I was able to let go. I had been so sick and had been managing my condition all alone. I was afraid to sleep, scared that I would not wake up.
The incident above occurred in January of 2011. I found out several months later that, in actuality, my symptoms and health issues could be traced back to a weak immune system I’ve had since birth. Ironically, as a child, my life seemed to be free of major health issues. Of course, many smaller problems were observed as exclusive maladies, and no pattern was ever established. In 2011, I was working in Fashion Retail as a General Manager in my early 30’s and had a successful career to that point. On the weekends I was out socializing with friends and acquaintances. I had lost 50 pounds since my divorce two years earlier and was looking and feeling better than I had in a long time. I was also conducting psychic readings for a few hours each week and had built a global clientele. All seemed well with my current environment.
One night I met a close friend at a restaurant known for its pizza and large beer selection. We had been working on a “Beer Tour” for several weeks and met that night to complete their Winterfest tour for a free t-shirt. We had what I considered “a grand old time!” The conversation was largely nonsensical, and I hadn’t laughed so hard in a long time. The evening out was light-hearted, however, by the time I arrived home I noticed something inside my lower lip. I was talking on my cell phone with another one of my friends and suddenly realized that a white bump was forming inside my mouth. I became upset as I wondered… a canker sore?!? I then grew extremely frustrated. Upon waking the next morning the sore had multiplied from one to two. I was now feeling fatigued and nauseous, as if I was being struck by a terrible virus.
Up to this point in my life, I rarely sought medical attention. However, I had a bad case of pneumonia in November of 2010 that caused me to faint at work. I was given a shot of penicillin in my ass(!) to avoid hospitalization and consequently missed two weeks of work. It was because of that incident with pneumonia that I thought I had better check in with a doctor. After the doctor checked the sores in my mouth, he told me that I had a virus and should go home to rest. After two days of little to no activity, the sores had spread throughout my entire mouth. I was in a great deal of pain and by now incredibly exhausted. Throughout this physical challenge, I managed to work my shifts. After another exhausting retail shift I left work, took some Nyquil, and slept all night and the following day. The morning after my marathon sleep session, I was still searching for a cure to the sores in my mouth. At the recommendation of a friend who works for an ENT, I visited an
Otolaryngologist who diagnosed me with canker sores and prescribed steroids and viral medication.
After taking this new medication for two days I began to feel better. My energy was returning and I was feeling vibrant again. My mouth was beginning to heal and I thought life was returning to its normal state. I went to brunch with a friend and was feeling motivated and ready to return to my schedule until the unexpected occurred. I barely made it home from brunch before I was sick again. My whole body crashed. I suddenly became very fatigued and nauseous, again. I decided I had better lay down and rest in my apartment. By that night my entire body felt heavy and beyond anything I had experienced prior. I had no energy and I felt my gums inside my mouth swelling all around my teeth. Not only was my mouth in a great deal of pain, but the steroids I had been prescribed were making me literally crazy. I found myself up at three o’clock in the morning with sweats and paranoia. I was so hot that I yanked my window open in the dead of winter. I felt like I might jump out of my skin. I remember wondering, “is this what it felt like to turn into a werewolf?” I suddenly felt like I had lost control of my mind. While I laid in bed a thousand pictures ran through my mind so quickly I could hardly acknowledge them; childhood memories, scenes from old soap operas, fleeting moments of recent occurrences. It was so bizarre and scary. Was I going to die? Was this my life flashing before my eyes? My nervous system was reacting in a very odd way and I felt it ‘tweaking’. I had no experience with anything like this before. My body was shaking violently as though an earthquake was trapped inside of me. Most frightening was that I didn’t understand any of it. After I stood at my apartment window for what seemed like an eternity, I grabbed my rosary and the Kuan Yin2 statue I had on my altar and prayed to the angels and my spirit guides to please help me make it through the night. I thought, “if I wake up tomorrow, then I am meant to live”.
It seems that everywhere we look these days, we see more and more people carrying weight. To someone on the outside, they may only see the unhealthy side effects of poor diet and pass judgements on the person’s ability to care for themselves. What may not be seen is the deep layers of emotional baggage that this person is carrying and their lack of self-love that ultimately affects their choices when caring or ultimately not caring for themselves. The baggage is really layering what we have acquired throughout this lifetime and others, and it has manifested into physical weight that we carry in our bodies, emotional weight, and spiritual weight in the form of karma.
The purpose of this book is to teach you how to release this weight from your spirit, mind, and body. I have learned from my own experience that to truly lose weight, we must complete the inner work of all the aspects of our lives. By looking at those difficult pieces of ourselves that is our weight, we bring to the surface many destructive emotions. By working through these emotions and facing them, rather than stuffing them away, we are able to overcome this weight once and for all. This book is not really about changing your diet but, instead, is about transforming all aspects of yourself and changing your life!
About the Author
Spiritual and psychic gifts came to Lisa through the generations of women in her family. She is the fourth generation of an incredible group of gifted healers, mediums and channels. Since 2006 she has been supporting clients through psychic readings, visiting the Akashic Records, connecting to teachers and loved ones and journeying to different Lokas or dimensions. She specializes in helping clients transition out of or recover from toxic situations such as; toxic work environments, home environments, toxic relationships and food sensitivities and toxicities. She works in partnership with her clients to identify the spiritual and emotional cause of attraction of these negative situations and begin to heal them through soul retrieval, self-inquiry and spiritual practices.
Lisa has a personal relationship with mold toxins and fungus. Their metaphysical reason to exist in a body is holding on to your past and allowing toxic energies to feed on your energy. For Lisa, this was a direct correlation to the toxic relationships she had and her own food addiction and patterns of codependency. Over the past decade Lisa has been blessed to work with many different clients, including her own personal journey, to remove toxic energies from their lives and fine tune their vibration. For Lisa, the result has been a physical loss of over 100 pounds and a completely new direction in work and relationships. Lisa’s focus in her current practice is supporting those suffering from mold and fungus dysfunction.
“It is my passion to cultivate compassion and loving kindness and it is through my Faith in the teachers and Gurus that I have been able to be healed. I now offer service to you, so we can all live in balance, health and vitality and increase conscious awareness for the greater good of all sentient beings.”