Just Believe

Introduction Starting at the beginning seems so long ago and there is so much to tell you. I want you to know everything, and I mean everything no matter how good or bad it may seem. This will be Jack’s story the way I saw it as his mother, and it will be my tool to remember our journey for the rest of my life, so I will never forget. I sit and wonder what people will think of me, even those I suppose who will be angry or upset by what I will say and what I will not say. Some, yes some will be hurt because they didn’t realise how much they had hurt me or impacted me with the things they did or said……the ultimatums. I have learned so much. I have become someone at peace with my life in this world, with you and with God. This book was never going to be written I told myself for many different reasons which you will understand along the way, but now I have realised that I needed you to know exactly what Jack went through. What I went through. What we as a family and friends went through, and of course what you could possibly go through one day yourselves. This is my point of view, my truth through my eyes as a mother and this is all I can give you, my truth. Will you be angry? You who is a family member, a friend, a nurse, a doctor who is reading this right now? Whoever you are, if I offend or anger you then I am truly sorry for this is not the intention. It is time for everyone to know this journey, one unlike any others. This is the story of my beautiful son Jack, how I saw it, my thoughts and my feelings and that is all. Why am I writing this now? There have been so many stories in the past to tell, why is this one so different? You will see why I have chosen to write this book because it is the only way I know how to help or comfort others. How can I possibly ignore those other mothers and fathers, the beautiful little children who right now are dealing with what my family have endured? How can I do nothing? How can I live while they sit there, where I used to sit….and do nothing? This is all that I know that I can do for you, telling the truth with no lies. The journey we have gone through will be one shared. It was not good enough to have gone through what we did with such intensity, as if emphasised to an unbearable capacity of pain, and it definitely was not completely right. Not through my eyes. But time has its way of healing wounds, and you will see a journey which will show you that even when people have hurt you, forgiveness truly is the only way. I believe that everyone does the very best they can with the knowledge they have at the time, even me. My job through this book is to show you a story that is not uncommon within the world today, to give you the understanding that there are people around us who need our love and support no matter who they are, without our judgement. I wish to give you the inspiration to know that even when things seem unbearable anything is possible. All you have to do is just believe. I send you love.