Traveling Light

“ Three years ago my husband suggested to go and work in a small village in the outback of Australia. We were living at that time only 7 years in New Zealand and had traveled here via Holland, Saudi Arabia, Namibia, and South Africa. We had moved house 15 times in the last 30 years. I was happy here and made for the first time in all those years the choice to stay behind and continue my life and work in New Zealand. A year later I stepped out of a 35 year relationship where I had allowed myself to be controlled and had subsequently limited my ability to grow as a person. In my ignorance I thought pleasing and following my husband in order to make him happy was my objective in life. What I really did was enabling myself as well as my husband to stay spiritually small instead of owning up to my own happiness and purpose in life. In fact, I didn’t know what my purpose was at the time. I had completely lost my direction and voice in this process due to feelings of inferiority, and miss believe that I had nothing valuable to say. All in all I intuitively knew that I had to change this situation in order to look into my own heart and follow my intuition. The past few years felt like a rebirth for me…I felt I had been long enough in this protective environment where I was cared for but at the same time tied to someone who made most of the decisions for me. It was time to try and stand on my own two feet, Learn from my mistakes in order to grow in confidence. I had often felt like his child in this relationship and other times like his parent. But what I wanted was to be acknowledged like an equal partner. The road to get there felt often like a difficult and sometimes painful labour.”