Chapter 1At no time was I by myself after Shambu passed away. At the moment of death of a loved one, God comes very close, transcending time and space, making only the important things clear, creating synchronicity.When I got the call from our friend that he had found Shambu dead in our Yurt, I knew this before he spoke. All day long I had felt Shambu working on me and not known why. Now it became clear. He was preparing me for the news I would receive that evening. It was subtle energy work, and I felt that he moved a tremendous amount of energy throughout the day. I felt his hands on me like I had when he did Polarity, Craniosacral, or any magical therapy on me. When I heard our friend’s voice telling me that he had found my husband on the couch, acupuncture needles next to him, likely having experienced a heart attack, my mind did not for one split second doubt the unbelievable information he shared with me. I broke down crying. I got out of the car and just sat there for a long time at the gas station on my way back from Cochiti until someone helped me back into the car. My mind started organizing flights back to Maui. I knew exactly what I needed to do, what I needed to pack, what to take and not to take, how long to stay. There were absolutely no questions in my mind. There was only clarity. This state lasted for a long time, certainly for the 17 days I was on the island, and even for a long time after that. Some remains with me to this day. What also happened was that I could tell by looking at people’s faces when they would die, not by the exact day, but I knew who would die soon. I first noticed this while observing people in the airport and later received confirmation from others. Over the next weeks and months I would call people whose relatives had passed away the day before or just hours before. I started to have a very real and true connection with the other world. It has become another gift. I have always been able to read the color of people’s faces and tell if they had cancer or other illness, but this was another level of insight.When I got to Maui, a friend met me at the airport and took me to the hospital, where I was supposed to take care of some things. I had to wait a couple of days for the autopsy results. My friend took me home. She dropped me off at the gate, and I told her I would just leave my bags there and pick them up later. I wanted to walk down the path of the 80 acres we had taken care of for many years. I started walking, and every root, every rock, every smell and sound was so familiar. The sun was getting lower, and it was still hot from the August heat. Halfway down the road I saw the ATV with the key in it. I don’t know why it had been left there or who left it there, but it was perfect. It had a little trouble starting but it did start for me. It was one of those magical things - I asked it to start, it did, and I drove back to pick up my bags. I could not imagine that I would want to leave again that night. I drove further down into the forest and saw my car parked and covered, as it was not working. The last conversation I’d had with my husband was about the car. I passed it, and the dogs were barking. I called my dog, Kekua, as he was the only one who knew me. The other dogs did not. I had been gone for almost a year, and Shambu had gotten these two new puppies. When they saw that Kekua was endlessly happy to see me, they trusted me and came close. I could tell they had been through a lot of trauma and needed gentleness and healing just as much as I did. Kekua was relieved to see me and knew that things would be okay now. The dogs had been with my husband for almost two days before he was found. I had been trying to call Shambu and it was unusual that he would not call me back, but then again, he had asked for more space. When he did not show up at the office, they looked for him.I went into the Yurt, put down my bags, and sat down, sobbing. Time stopped. My heart was so incredibly heavy, as if someone had torn it open with huge force. There it was inside out, raw, and unprotected. I cried and cried and cried. I sat in the hammock outside, listening to the wind and the birds. It was getting dark. One of the dogs, Sita, cried also and would only stop when I held her in my arms. So I tried to sleep in bed but, I couldn’t because the dog cried so hard it was even more heart breaking. I had lit incenses and candles. There was some Frankincense someone had left. I slept on the floor with the dogs in my arms, or I should say rested, as I could not sleep. I had a very clear picture of these two black dogs, Sita and Radhe, being the guardians to the underworld. They were like sphinxes standing left and right to lead and guard Shambu. The pictures I saw were amazing and also what Shambu explained to me from the other side. It was about why he had left, and how much he loved me; he gave me glimpses of the other side. Conversations came back to me that we had had days and weeks before. He had told me that he was going to leave this earth, but my mind just could not conceive of it. He had asked me if I could keep our married name, Mardel. It was important to him. He said there weren’t any Mardels around anymore. He had told me that he had left my name on the business account, so that I could shift things around. He had asked me if I could finish his life work if he could not do it, and I promised him that I would. All this happened in different conversations, and there were more even subtler things he had said. But for some reason I could not see it. I had just booked a flight back to Maui to see him in September. When I told him, he had said: “Oh, that would be something - to see you again.” He knew he would not see me again.
Join in the remarkable and inspiring journey of a young woman jumping off the cliff, overcoming her own fears, and leaving behind the country she called home for 25 years to explore new horizons, cultures and people, and delving into a journey of healing and spiritual depth that led her to uncover more and more of her own personal and objective truth by following her heart’s desire and her passion for horses. Exploring the way of the horse has helped her to establish boundaries, become a leader in empowering one’s self, and assist people in healing themselves through the horse. When her husband passes away, she drew inward to explore the spiritual realms even more deeply than before, being guided on another amazing journey exploring the inner world and other realms, ultimately realizing that there is no death and that death means just a change in form. This inward journey compliments her outer world and reveals her life mission, in which she chooses to give up everything in order to follow her deeper calling.
About the Author
Claudia has always loved adventure and travel, not just in her physical form but in a more spiritual sense as well. From a young age she has been looking for the truth - not just her personal truth following her heart wherever it guided her - but for the objective truth that makes the larger picture become whole. Being a very grounded person who loves horses and animals and working with them on a daily basis she has also been gifted with a rare type of sensitivity and intuition that have allowed her to communicate beyond the boundaries of physical existence. When her husband passed away in 2011 she explored this other world and learned to step into her own power and overcome her grief. Her goal is to share her experiences of life, courage, trust and faith with you to help you find your own power and strength within yourself. This has become the work she is doing today.