Chapter 1 What Am I Here to Do? I have always asked myself “where did I come from, where am I to go, what am I to do?” This is common to most people. I didn’t seem to belong in the family I was in. I resembled some relatives but I didn’t seem to have anything in common with my parents or siblings. I never quite fit into my age group at school either. I started school a year early but it seemed to further tell me that I have always been in the wrong time zone of life. I even wondered if I came from a different planet like Superman! These feelings are common in teenagers but I felt like this when I was still very small, two to three years old. My maternal Grandmother knew it too. This story will explain where these feelings came from and where they have led me in my life. Lesson: Short times of confusion and sadness are the spirit’s way of allowing us to recalculate our circumstances, make new plans, and reconnect with who we really are. How many people around us are throwing their pebbles into our personal space and what ripples are we experiencing from those choices? Do some of us come with more knowledge on board in our psyche than others? How do the various connections with others change us and who we are? Why do some of us feel like we just don’t belong anywhere or to anybody from childhood on through adulthood? How does an adopted child “feel” there is something else and someone else they belong to without anyone telling them they were adopted? What lessons are for others to teach us and what lessons are for us to find on our own?I can see where the lessons I have learned had to come to me the way they did and through the people they came from as well. My spirit and spirituality needed the things that I experienced even though some were very painful. I wanted and needed to learn forgiveness. I needed to know what a blessing forgiveness of others would bring to me. I needed to know love and how to love. I also needed to know what not being loved felt like as well. My whole life experience has prepared me for my adopted children and the foster children who would find their way into my life. My presence in their lives has changed their lives and has added another dimension to my own life in the process. I needed to go through very traumatic experiences early in my life to intuitively understand the needs of these children. I needed to see how the choices of others shaped young children for a lifetime. I am a psychologist and a minister. I have my own opinion of these issues. I have my own experiences which I will share in this book. This and all other conclusions are left to the reader. I am an expert on my own experiences and life. I have had many teachers. My first teachers were what I used to think of as negative for the most part. I will share my own insight into what I learned from these experiences in the end.Lesson: Every famous statue that has stood the test of time was once a rough stone of marble or some other very hard mineral. It took the sculptor’s vision and talent to chip away the rough edges to expose the beauty of the figure within the stone. I believe this is also true in life. Others provide the sandpaper and chisels to make us who we are to be. This is my gift to you. I have learned much in writing this book. I can see where pebbles and ripples in my life have taught me the lessons I need to learn. I needed to look at the ripples from others and of my own creation, and see my spirit rather than the shell of the physical body I have been living in. These lessons will add up and make sense to everyone in their own time and own life. Ideally these lessons will tell us what our passion is in life and how to fulfill it. I personally believe we all know what our passion/mission is when we see it and feel it. I believe we know in our heart and soul when we have learned our lessons and are ready to move on in our eternal journey. I have always been drawn to very wise older people who have related this message to me in many kind gentle and loving ways. This lesson has indeed been a blessing to me. They leave this life peacefully and easily with their life and lessons completed. Others leave with heavy hearts and unspoken regrets. Their passing seems lonely. This too is a lesson for those of us who are not in this transition period yet. It is with great pleasure and some tears too, I share my life in these pages for those who are asking themselves what their life means to them and others. I send my blessings to all who read these pages. Lesson: “I believe I chose to come into this existence that taught me to be who I wanted to be. I chose those who would be the sandpaper in my life that would help me take off the raw edges of me to create who and what I will become. I chose the terribly sharp chisels that would chip away at the rough stone to expose who I am and what my mission is here. I thereby learned what I was going to need to know. There is a lesson in every action we take just as every action against us is a lesson also. ” Rev Carrie D. Larson, MA, CCHT
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About the Book
This book is about learning everything we can from our lives. Every moment, waking or sleeping, has a message for us about who we are and what we are on the earth to do. It is exciting to understand this concept and to know how connected we really are to each other and to the universal energy that runs through all of us. We can be quiet in meditation and receive this great energy and knowledge.
Forgiveness can bring our purpose in life closer to being fulfilled. We are blessed with something to do in this life that will help others. This is like throwing a pebble into a still pond. The ripples of our actions in life can bring about wonderful growth and change in the entire world. Look at the influence parents have on children and multiply that by thousands. The world is ready for you. Are you ready to experience your own fulfillment?
About the Author
Rev. Carrie D. Larson MA, CCHT, is married with four grown children, three grandchildren, and two great-grandchildren. She has been writing for decades, which served her well in her education at Cuesta Community College in San Luis Obispo, California, from which she received three AA degrees. This was followed by two years at California State Polytechnic University also in San Luis Obispo. She also became a certified clinic hypnotherapist with the Hypnosis Training Institute in San Luis Obispo. Her bachelor’s degree was finished in Eastern Oregon University, followed with her master’s degree in psychology at the Institute of Transpersonal Psychology in Palo Alto, California. She has had her own counseling business since 1991. She graduated with honors and is a lifetime member of Pi Gamma Mu and Pinnacle Honor Societies.
Carrie served on the speaking bureau at Cuesta College and the Cal Poly campuses. She was born with one of the muscular dystrophies and has spoken to many groups and been actively educating groups and individuals about these conditions for decades. She and her small service dog, Two Bits, will readily answer questions for children and adults alike.
Carrie became a minister in 1990 and presently holds two ordinations. She and her husband own White Dove Wedding Services in Oregon. They have performed seven hundred weddings as of 2014. She has been writing in her spare time and now is publishing those writings and continuing with her active lifestyle.
Carrie sees herself as a life coach. Her goal in life is to be of use in the betterment of lives wherever possible.