From Duality to Totality

About the Book

When Krissi Carroll’s husband, Shawn, was diagnosed with cancer, her world shifted overnight. For months she held herself together as caregiver, nurse, and protector, suppressing the weight of grief while fighting for the man she loved. But after Shawn’s passing, the emotions she had buried began to surface in ways she never expected. From Duality to Totality is a raw and deeply personal account of love, loss, addiction, and spiritual awakening. In the aftermath of profound grief, Krissi found herself navigating the dark realities of substance dependence, searching desperately for peace while feeling completely disconnected from herself and from God. Through courage, faith, and a relentless pursuit of healing, Krissi began the long journey back to wholeness. What unfolded was not only recovery, but a powerful spiritual transformation that reshaped her understanding of suffering, purpose, and divine grace. This story is for anyone who has ever lost someone they loved, wrestled with their own darkness, or questioned whether redemption was possible. It is a reminder that even in life’s deepest valleys, healing can begin—and that God has a way of leading us back to ourselves.

About the Author

Krissi Carroll is a registered nurse, holistic health coach, and founder of Essential Goddess Women’s Wellness. After experiencing profound personal loss and overcoming addiction, she dedicated her life to helping others heal through holistic wellness, emotional processing, and spiritual alignment. Krissi now uses her story to inspire others to find hope, faith, and transformation through life’s most difficult seasons.