Nelia is a first time author and shares her story of pain and grief after suffering the loss of her mother to terminal cancer. This journey begins with Nelia’s breakdown at the moment of the last good-bye with her mother in the Palliative Care ward, only to realise she had to return to life which selfishly continued in spite of her sorrow. In the process of grief, Nelia found herself questioning the meaning and purpose of her life. She found that within the darkness of her breakdowns, the path to the light of healing, and subsequent breakthroughs, led her to a personal spiritual awakening. In sharing her journey, Nelia hopes that her story which led to the path to spiritual awakening can provide some assistance to those who are, and may still be suffering from the pain of grief and loss. Through writing of her book Nelia, has created an Instagram page, carnelian_heart, where she shares with the readers aspects of her journey that assisted in pushing through some of her most challenging moments after the death of her mother.