A Touch of Vertigo

The Metaphysical Seed My father (a visionary, with a very innovative mind) used to say; there are no such things as problems. If something in your life is a problem, dare to look at it, and ask; does it have a solution? If yes, then it’s not a problem. It’s a task. \n Problem resolved. Period. Move on. (With your new task). I have inherited this way of thinking. There’s always a solution to a situation, given that you understand the underlying aspect of what you consider to be a problem. You may not like the solution, but that’s not the issue here (that’s a whole other story). But this way of thinking moves mountains and was a natural part of my upbringing. My mother on the other hand, bulldozes everyone with love, homecooked food, and advice for the soul. Our home was an open door, a constant inferno - always stacked with people coming and going. Room for all sorts. And always open for young, stray, unhappy souls, who needed an ear (and a meal) - and a message for the road. Some of this I have inherited too. \n What they have passed on to me – a visionary mind and a big heart – I honor deeply. Through the ages many have interpreted the metaphysical tradition, its philosophy, its perceptions and its sacrificial doings and happenings. There are many words. There are many descriptions. Some are right, some wrong. \nBecause the spiritual tradition, the Metaphysical Wisdom, is a seed; forever growing, forever changing – depending on the environment, the agriculture, the fertilizers, the doings, and the don’ts. There is not a fixed curriculum. It is a practice experienced. There are rituals. Ceremonies. But only to Serve. Only through gratitude from the heart, do you enter the sacred wisdom of this tradition; this knowledge of working with the Divine and Whispering with the Wind. Through trials (and errors) you are guided. Everything is felt, inhaled and digested. Physically. With respect for all living beings and non-beings. Given the right fertilizer a plant will grow. Given the wrong fertilizer it will die. So, intentions are not enough. Learning from elders, listening to wisdom, respecting insights; is everything – combined with your own wisdom; learned through understanding and practice. Sharing this with the world, is key. Just like the world is not only for the ones who can afford to live here (no bird has ever paid entrance; no fish has ever dined (willingly) in a restaurant) no-one owns this knowledge. It is not for the chosen few. It is for the world. The world is a symbiose. Of energetic exchange. Of giving and taking. Of inhaling and exhaling. Sometimes, some of the most sacred things in the world are hidden in plain sight and the Metaphysical tradition is not new-age knowledge. It is an ancient philosophy of pure know-how, of how to actually be in the world. How to connect. With your Self, and with the ebb and flow of nature. How to see, watch, listen and feel and how to bring forth all these attributes within ourselves, and how to bring them forth into the world. To be cherished. And used. Rightfully. Understanding these aspects, and how to work with them and make them work for you, relieves the stress of everyday competition and leaves worries behind. This teamwork with nature, this understanding of Oneness, makes everyone a winner. And invites no-one to sit on the loser’s bench. You are not a victim (Forever) Earlier in my life – when I was young and foolish – I had a tendency to give away my power. To all the men in my life. And some women too. With the result of belittling myself, never giving myself the upper hand. Often, when I was labelled as too much, too strong, too loud, too intelligent, too happy, too shy, too demanding, too stupid, too beautiful, too powerful – I toned down, adapted to expectations, tried my best to fit in and focused on lifting others up instead. \n So, although I was born with the willpower, the intelligence and the determination to be Joan of Arc – somewhere along the line God’s plan failed, because I turned into (one hell of) a Geisha. \n It took me many, many years (and the equivalent amount of tears) to realize the reason behind this behavior. I was victimizing myself.\n\n Many self-help-books will say: Just ask for what you want, and you will get it. But what if you never learned how to ask for what you really want? \n What if you were too busy blocking and barricading – always having to push away what you didn’t want – instead of learning how to ask for what you really wanted?\n How can you learn to empower yourself, if life always taught you the opposite?\n How can you learn to self-implicit/self-reflect, if you were always too busy watching out for the next big earthquake?\n That’s the real question here.\n How will you know the meaning of integrity, if you never experienced it?\n How will you learn the grandness of truth, if you were always told a lie? \n Let me tell you what you learn: You learn NOT to trust your intuition. You learn not to be a burden. You learn to take care of everyone except yourself. You learn to keep your feelings to yourself. You learn not to ask for help. You learn to try to fix things yourself. You learn to be invisible. \n And let me tell you something – it’s a very lonely place to be.\n So, give yourself a little slack. If you’ve survived any or all of this, you have to be a very strong soul! Never underestimate the power of your past \n How you digest your old life, is often how you end up living your present life. If you keep a lid on your emotions, and don’t get (the bad) experiences out of your body (one way or the other), your system will keep putting the experience, the episode(s) on “replay” (with different settings, props, and characters, but the same overall theme), until you have learned your soul lesson; the one you have come here to seize. We all dive in too deep. We all get smacked in the face. Get knocked down cold and find ourselves down for the count. Such is life.\n But we are not victims (forever). \n Yes, he may be an asshole, or she might be the worst woman ever, and yes, you can mentally kick-box them for a while.\nBut after that – we must focus on the resurrection, not on the crucifixion. This is God’s gift to us.