Only Four Years Old
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The story of “Only Four Years Old” was written about fourteen years ago as a part of Syeena’s healing process after remembering that Easter Sunday when she was four years old. While writing and continuing therapy, more details of that day came up and were incorporated into the story. Other details of incest and her family’s denial had come up beginning with a terrifying dream beginning in the late 80’s. It was in the spring of 2001 that she remembered many of the incidents of that day when she was only four years old. The most important part of this story is the healing process that continues every day. This Healing Journey is a Continuing Daily Process of Letting Go of the pain, depression, anger and fear. It is a never-ending process of Trusting enough to Receive the Love and Joy That is our Right, as Creatures of Light, Given this Special Gift of Life, To Learn and to Grow into our Destiny of Wholeness with our Creator.
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About the Book
Syeena Malone has written about her repressed memories of Easter Sunday when she was Only Four Years Old. These memories began with a nightmare in the spring of 1989. For the next twelve years, the memories began to surface, very slowly, one detail at a time. It became apparent that Easter Sunday was a trauma anniversary for her but it was in the spring of 2001 that the worst memory surfaced, finally explaining everything. Only Four Years Old tells the story of incest by her grandfather, denial and shame from her grandmother as well as abandonment and betrayal by her mother to whom she turned for support, help and understanding. It also tells about her struggle after leaving the cult that she had trusted to provide spiritual support, acceptance and love. The most important part of the story is the healing process with three therapists for over 25 years. Melia supported Syeena for the first ten years and the early repressed memories. After Syeena moved, Olivia was her therapist when she remembered that Easter Sunday and for about thirteen years, walking with her through the family garbage but also other areas in which she needed support. Finally Steve guided her through the EMDR process, a healing modality for people suffering with PTSD. (PTSD has been found to be very effective for soldiers returning from Iraq, Iran and Afghanistan and anyone suffering from any trauma, remembered or forgotten.) Meditation, guided imagery and metaphysical teachers have been significant for her healing process.
About the Author
Writing Only Four Years Old was part of Malone’s healing process after remembering the worst part of that Easter Sunday. She hopes this story will support others’ ongoing healing process.