My Blessing in Disguise "The Separation"

My entire world was stripped and I experienced extreme heartache and loneliness after my relationship ended abruptly. I didn’t want to end the relationship but I knew I had to let her go. She wanted to explore her options and all I ever wanted from her was for her to show me that she loved and wanted to be with me. For some reason we just couldn’t come together to make the relationship pleasing to the both of us. We split. I thought I was doing the right thing and felt in my heart that I deserved better. After the break up I focused on finding someone new and moving on.

I thought meeting someone else would take away the pain and the yearning that I had for my ex to love me the way I wanted to be loved. It didn’t quite work out that way. Shortly after our break up, I met someone online and dated her off and on for a couple of months. I knew the second day after meeting my new hope that it couldn’t work between us. I tried to somehow deal with our mismatched personalities to replace the emptiness that I had in the core of my soul from ex’s absence. After months of trying to ‘settle’ with her, I decided that I was too old for that and I let her go as well. I decided to spend some time with myself and allow my future to unfold on its own. In spite of my efforts to move on, months after the break up I continued to experience deep and excruciating pain in the middle of my chest that would not go away. Fortunately this pain and yearning of my ex lead me to my spiritual awareness and development. A series of strange coincidences kept happening to me. I thought I was going crazy so I hired a therapist who encouraged me to journal. I began to document the ‘happenings’ and they are literally UNBELIEVABLE! My ex and I are both softball players. My number is 10 and her number is 11. It first started with me seeing her softball number, 11, everywhere. Most of the time when I looked at the clock it was --:11, 10:11, 11:10, or 11:11. I told my therapist and she suggested that I look up the number 11. I began to do research. I looked up the meaning of the number 11 and a whole new world was introduced to me. I continued to research spiritual stuff which led me to a website of Angel Numbers (Joanne Sacred Scribes). Numbers that I noticed that were repeating or showing up in my day over and over, I would look them up on the website to see what the Angels were trying to tell me. After a while more numbers started to show up repetitively. One day while travelling on the turnpike a car merged onto the road in front of me and was going extremely slow. After being behind the car for about a minute or so, I noticed the license plate had the same last four digits as my ex’s cell phone number. I then began noticing the last four digits of her cell phone number were all around me on other car’s license plates, billboards, bank account statements, bill notices and retail receipts. After the cell phone number phenomenon, I started noticing her birth date (6-11-83), our anniversary date (8 –18), other Angel numbers, her car make and model (old and new) and even her name and her family members spoken to me by others. After documenting these reoccurrences for months, I kept getting soul urges to type my journal entries. To this day the numbers appear to me in miraculous ways several times a day and I continue to decipher them. I am not sure what it all means, but we’ll see what happens and what my Angels are guiding me to. The following journal entries are ‘happenings’ that I found mysterious, frustrating and hopeful. I hardly ever saw 3178, the actual last four digits of her cell phone number, in that order, but I would notice the numbers mixed up such as: 1873, 1378, 3718, 8317, etc. Some days the numbers made me feel like the Universe was giving me a sign that she would return and we would be together again and other times I felt like the Universe was rubbing it my face that she had moved on with someone else so that I could repay bad Karma. Ultimately, I wanted to let go of her and meet someone else, but the Universe would not allow me to. Reminders of her were EVERYWHERE! I was constantly reminded of her while at work, home, travelling, with friends, by family, on vacation and even in my dreams! I could not get away! I decided to jot down the occurrences because they were unbelievable to me! The records that I kept over a period of time have lead to this book. I finally came to a point of realizing that the number sequences that I saw were merely positive energies sent to me from my Angels. They sent the energies so that I could feel hope in my heart during my transformation period. That hope allowed my light to shine bright and I was able to illuminate others even in my time of despair. I eventually had to ‘detach’ from the signs so that I could finally face my own issues. In the latter months I dedicated more of my time to research and enhance my own spirituality. Enjoy and learn from my story.