At The Heart Of It All

During these times the writings provided a sacred context within what felt chaotic and broken. They guided me to focus my attention inwards so that my soul could begin to be heard. This was a time to create the space for something else to emerge. As mentioned earlier I put together a daily practice which included meditation and yoga and also a movement form of meditation where my body dictated the form this took depending on what needed to be released at the time. I felt that this was my personal interpretation of Chi Gong. I spent a lot of time walking while listening to music to keep my mind calm and to minimise the mind talk, and last but not least the psycho-spiritual lessons from the enneagram were a most valuable additional resource. Gradually I became familiar with silence and could see how important it was in the creation of a new life path. I learned to listen to the quiet voice within and resisted the urge to follow the route that my fear and anxiety would have me take. Not having enough money to live was an ever present threat to my peace of mind. This was a time of disorientation and uncertainty as all of the old ways of being began to crumble. Over time I began to trust my inner guidance more and could feel myself settling into a new way of being. As always Leanne’s writings were there to guide me during the most difficult transitions. As I began to transform and rebuild my life I could also begin to see the emergence of a deeper commitment to my work and could feel a resonance with the medicine woman as she worked her magic within my energy work. There was at first a subtle shift in my relationship with myself and my work which over time began to resonate more strongly. There were times when self-doubt threatened to derail my best efforts but gradually a new sense of self and greater confidence became stronger. Both Leanne and I had struggled to let go of the selves that our families and friends knew. Those selves felt safe and secure within the lives we were living. At this point however we both realised that if we wanted to follow the path that was calling ever louder we would have to align with our calling and risk the uncertainty that is was demanding. Leanne continued to struggle with self-doubt and inner conflict between what she felt her friends and family expected of her and what was calling her to fulfil her purpose this time around. As mentioned earlier, the journey into the world of spirit was considered very weird by those around us at that time. She finally surrendered to her purpose but was tragically taken from us before she had the time to realise it. I also faltered at this point. I couldn’t let go of the need for financial security and clung to my nursing career for longer than was helpful. For a time I felt as though I was hovering over rather than living through my purpose as it continued to call me. When I finally said the big ‘yes’ it came after another ‘breaking open’ or opportunity in the form of the loss of another relationship. During this time I was taken back to the betrayal at the end of my marriage to heal this wound before progress could be made. The incredible shift that was experienced at the deepest level following this time made me see just how effectively we can block our own growth without even realising what we are doing. It also showed me the necessity to continue to deepen my commitment to my path. The changes in my energy sessions have gone hand in hand with the degree to which I have been able to embody my purpose. Everything I see and feel in the sessions I have experienced personally. It is so exciting to understand that whatever I am doing for another I am doing for myself. It is an exquisite sense of wonder at the perfection of life and the deep understanding that we are in fact all one and our only purpose is to reflect and reveal the presence of the divine within each of us. The way we do that is unique to each of us as we express that presence through our gifts. I have been both surprised and amazed to realise that in a way I am a midwife to those souls who are in the process of those deep inner transformative changes and connections as they make their way to becoming butterflies. I feel I have also been charged with sharing the ‘how’ these changes are occurring as we all move into more stable states of coherence. During this stage we may be besieged by wild swings between memories and feelings from who we were in the past, who we are now and who we are becoming as we align more deeply with the field of unified intelligence. As the frequency of our fields rise our intuition is activated and we become more aware of the synchronous events surrounding us and this frequency of purpose begins to move ego aside. We are beginning to integrate those higher frequencies and as we do we generate a field of love and joy which is contagious, amplifying what is innate within us. We are becoming the imaginal souls. As more of us come into flow with this new state of being it becomes stabilised. There is no separation between being and doing. We begin to live from an inner connection with our soul which is beyond ego. Decisions come from a place of love guided by resonance. There is a sense of co-creation and of being an example of trust in motion. We are being pulled forward both personally and globally. We are seeing systems collapse and this is calling us to stabilise coherence and stay aligned and in tune with the evolutionary flow. And so – I hope you will join me on this most exciting and loving journey.