Dreams do come true, but when higher purposes than any the Dreamer envisions are infused into them, untold magnificent and unimaginable outcomes will inevitably unfold.
This powerful true story of love, courage, and thought-provoking revelations offers practical nutritional information, clinical research, and spiritual insights narrated from the perspective of a mother’s love for her child so profound it sends her on a trek that starts out in a determined effort to learn ways to help him thrive, despite a life-shortening diagnosis of Cystic Fibrosis, and turns into a journey in search of the purpose of life and what heaven is really all about.
Preface
I began journaling a few weeks after Jesse David’s transition in order to create an outlet and a means for stirring my soul and unlocking myself from the shock, sorrow, and dismay I felt over his passing. Jesse lived a mere sixteen and a half years with the life-shortening genetic disorder known as Cystic Fibrosis, yet he had a determination to survive. His confidence and compassion toward his own life and others can only be deemed uncommon by any standards.
I did not intend to write this book when I began journaling. The decision evolved as my observations of Jesse’s life and our experiences began to formulate a positive message with a constructive force in my life. My foremost reason for putting this story in print is to bind my memories of the gift of Life and Love afforded me and entrusted to my care.
My notes-to-self of personal revelations and experiences, along with explanations and insights shared with others, helped me put the pieces of my life together anew and make sense of circumstances and outcomes well enough to survive emotionally.
Although the accounts of our experiences are precise in the pages that follow, they are by no means all-inclusive. And while I do not intend to draw sympathy or create sorrow, the story of Jesse's life, both written and unwritten, is nevertheless not meant for the weak of heart. That said, however, having observed him, having loved him, and loving him still, my personal interpretation of the purpose of Life has been ever more greatly magnified.
Note to Reader
This book chronicles my journey with an Angel that lasted sixteen and a half years, how he came to me, the experiences we shared, and how he left. I believe we have come into this world in order to learn to love on levels even deeper than Angels love. How so? How can we love more deeply than the Angels? It comes down to this. The Angels in Their Heavenly dwelling know no discord. There is no sorrow or disappointment. There is no grievance or offense to forgive. In fact, Forgiveness is not required in the Heavenly realms. Forgiveness is a mechanism provided to us who are journeying this Earthly experience in order to rise above the conditions and discord that leave us feeling injured and offended.
I have studied Forgiveness for many years, decades in fact, and what I have learned is that it is not until the process of healing is able to expand sufficiently that we are able to love on levels deeper than we have ever imagined. But we are not taught how to forgive. We are only told that we must. I, however, needed to know the method, a way to invoke the activity of Forgiveness so thoroughly within my experience that I would have proof of Its activity within my feeling world, my emotional world, and in the core of my memory world. I want to Love as Angels do, and greater, and I think that has been my mission since entering this place of splendor and of shadows. As Angels (Spiritual beings) having a human experience it should be possible to transcend the human emotions and ego in order to Love on a deeper, eternally sustained level.
I am convinced that no circumstance is mere coincidence. We are each being drawn back to that magnificent Source of Love that placed us here, guides us, teaches us, and reminds us that our glorious beginning is our ultimate Destiny. It simply requires the Desire rightly motivated, and we will find our way back Home in Peace and irresistible Beauty that is ever expanding and permanently sustained.
I believe that in the perfecting of our Souls and the Love we have come here to remember, each of us constructs specific challenges, whether consciously or unconsciously, intended to build our eternal character and attain our individual mastery of life. Certainly, if this is true, then as for me I can think of no greater requirement than to have to return the one I have loved so deeply to the Source of the very Love that gifted me so magnificently.
And as for you, my Precious Jesse David, I can think of no greater challenge than to give up every hope, every dream, and every desire for the sake of being perfected in all that you are Eternally. You always thought you were not strong, but I know the power of the Love that brought you to me, as if at my command. And I know the power of the Love that has led me from where I first began to where I am now. Your life, while you were here and since you have gone, has been the amazing miracle of God’s Love manifest in my own life that continually draws me, convinces me, and raises me into the Heart of the mighty, loving Source of our existence.
You, Jesse David, remain my most studied teacher, my forerunner, my crown, and the greatest privilege of my life.
Love,
Mom