Freed*Dumb

So think of a performance that requires a stage and what would have to be included in this mental picture. You would see a microphone and a camera and various equipment related to filming and production. Ok now I want to introduce a practice to better associate and exist with our emotions and feelings but first I need to introduce a new perspective. I want us to give our emotions the microphone and the camera. Now previously mentioned the majority of our emotions are not actually triggered by anything of real importance and is just a misunderstanding between people. We have nervous systems that are over stimulated in this world and we have created hair triggers for them to go off. We then experience these emotional realities as if they are indicating something and usually something that is wrong. Once it shows up it is now our individual reality for us to endure or express. So it would seem that these frequent appearances are here to stay. Just like knowing you are not your thoughts doesn’t cause them to not arise the same applies for our emotions. We need to allow them to express when they show up but that doesn’t mean the previous relationship we had with them is the only way that we can exist together. First off we have to change how we define these synthetic realities and the frequent occurrences of them. Not every emotion or feeling is important although this goes against our programming. When we were younger in our various environments even our facial movements coinciding with coursing energies could have gotten us in trouble. I mean that we were interpreting others reactions at the same time we had an emotional experience as directly related to our inner world and not seeing that they could have been reacting to their own internal world and not our experience. So others not just ourselves taught us how to establish a relationship with our emotions. We feel our sensations and emotions not the other way around because if it was the other way around we wouldn’t even be having this conversation. Isn’t it amazing that we try to control everything outside of us in people, places and things and give away our power in the one place that we actually have it. Ok so our emotions will continue to show up when triggered even if we didn’t mean for the trigger to go off. So we are not concerned with the trigger but in the thing itself after we start to experience it. One of the major reasons why we have created habits and behaviors and actually whole identities is to avoid certain emotions. We need to reestablish our power over them that is the first thing. It’s like when we are about to discipline our children we have already made up our minds but we are still willing to listen to their explanation. I want us to treat our emotions while on the stage the same way. I want for us to give our emotions the microphone and also the camera let’s put it on the stage and see what it has to say. One of the major reasons that we avoid our emotions and feelings is because we already have a mental image that we think we are and these emotions don’t fit that image. In fact in men especially feminine qualities that are not attributed to naturally occurring emotions create a total and complete misunderstanding of the human condition. This is somewhat known in the collective because people will ironically ridicule the fact that men seemingly have to exhibit certain emotions and be mentally tough. So a person who is operating from an image and a mindset of having to be mentally tough simply has no room to express helpful naturally occurring energetic movements based on triggers that they are defining in their belief system. When ironically the ones who are really tough mentally are the ones who facing ridicule of their peers will still allow perceived weaknesses IE emotions to express that are perceived to be feminine even though they know they will be ridiculed. Now from a feminine perspective if a woman becomes too cold or mentally tough and perhaps even has more of a connection to expressing more “manly emotions “than she is seen as being a bitch. Once we have understood and looked deeply into this phenomena of our emotions not fitting into our box or our mental image then we can give the emotions the microphone and see what they are really trying to say. We can start like this I want us to get in front of a mirror and sit down so that you are close enough to see into your own eyes. We have to come back to the place where we first established and created this mental image in the first place. We did not create this image out in society amongst the other mirrors around you i.e. your peers. We actually constructed our images when we were alone and judging our reflections with all the evidence we collected in the form of criticism praise and attention. So we merged the result of our introspection with our reflection and distorted the wavelength or energy already there. I like to think of that scene in the movie the matrix were they crash the helicopter into the building and it only creates a ripple through the glass. So here we are starring at ourselves in the mirror can you feel the energy of the mismatch. That what you are looking into is not what you are always expressing from. We have to use this distortion to once again separate energetically from the seeming connection between who we are and how we feel. So look into the face of the real person the flesh and blood and not the mental distortion that we now can sense. Bring up an emotion that you want to see pass behind your eyes while starring into them. Maybe an emotion from a past experience that you can conjure up for this exercise. If not just consciously create in your mind’s eye a perspective or just raw feelings to watch where this merging happens. In time you will feel the emotion happening in your body the way it normally arises however this time there is something different happening. Now the emotion doesn’t feel the same because we are scanning for a thing but we don’t see any change. What does change however based on the energetic movement is the identity in the reflection. How could this be that simply feeling something inside distorts how we perceive our self? We are now getting a glimpse of how we project our internal worlds onto and out into our environments. In this exercise we are projecting it onto our reflection because that is currently “our environment”. In real world experiences your environment could be your spouse, kids, boss, or anyone or anything.