A Deeper Look

Seasons Change I want to rest, but instead I insist I must proceed. I left in search of happiness, but it wouldn’t matter where I went; it wouldn’t be. Sometimes I’ll convince myself that something isn’t important when it’s easier than bearing the burden. I’ve also fought for something unimportant when I was convinced it would be worth it. It could have been a short trip from the bayou to the holy country, but I took the scenic route. That winding road got me there, but it made sure I saw every angle of my destination before letting me out. What I was searching for was with me even before I left, Although I wouldn’t realize this until my final steps. I had to watch it be broken down right in front of me before I could understand how it was all put together completely. I guess this is the best way to see its intricacies, but I really wish I could have seen them more easily. The lake brought me to peace when everything else had brought me to pieces. Everything I have trained myself to be is no longer needed. Those thoughts no longer serve me, but they definitely are still lingering. It wasn’t all for nothing, but nothing is what it is leaving me. It wasn’t until the last few leaves had fluttered and hit the ground that I realized the seasons had already been changing, and they weren’t waiting for me to come around. Self-Talk We said one thing just to go back on our word. Why did we feel the need to say something so firm? Time and time again, this the story of ourselves. The tension in our jaws tells all that we need to tell. Speaking words of subterfuge for ears that have already determined what they want to hear. What is the point of driving this conversation? Neither of us knows how steer. Standing firm for something we are certain we believe, but most certainly we have misperceived. Standing firmly on our beliefs, we’ve grounded ourselves to nothing sturdy, it seems. We aren’t good at laying a foundation, Setting down roots without looking at the lay of the land. o how far we thought we had come, Until how far we actually had come was shown to us once we got caught up in this jam. We want mass change so quickly, but change ourselves we can’t. When it comes time for personal change, will the words we spoke be upheld? Illusions quickly turn to realizations— realizations about ourselves. As we sit here admiring what it is we have built, we start noticing what we have neglected as well. While we were so busy staying busy, We exhausted not only ourselves but also everything else. It all seems fine until it’s not. The tree will grow new branches, but not from the same ole scar and knot. We are in this together, breathing the same air, Intertwined and wandering aimlessly. No way of knowing, but we still have to care. Not all who wander are lost. Not all who are lost will even notice or wonder. When we get desperate, I wonder what it is we will discover.   Kind Vibration I built walls to protect something unworthy of protecting. The walls I built out of necessity, it turns out, I built unnecessarily. They got hit so hard that they started crumbling. It took them being broken down to have myself seen clearly. I think I like it better this way, plus I don’t have the energy for rebuilding. Now there’s an open flow between my center and what used to center me constantly. I just found my own stability, and I found it honestly. Connecting to the unified field and creating possibilities. The old me just doesn’t survive in the conditions the new me is orchestrating. These conditions are conducive to what the true self is radiating. For some time I struggled to hold on, but the blow took it from me instantaneously. It’s a relief to feel the breeze through the hole that was knocked into me. Dejálo ir, dejálo ir. Just let it go, just let it go. Many things were becoming too unworthy of my energy to hold. I just quit caring, and that made caring deeply happen more easily. Life is hard and no one is ready to accept full accountability. We are brothers and sisters here for love, despite what you hear or what others will deal out psychologically. I’m disconnecting from what’s connecting me to this mess. It could my Gemini sign again, or maybe this is the time I’m finally gonna circumvent the stress. This kindness came on heart waves flowing with simplicity. You don’t need an EKG to tell that my heart beats rhythmically. I prefer this feeling, Walking with sympathy, Loving unconditionally. I just hope this time I can extend the extent for which I hold this emotion vibrationally.