With my hands held up high, palms facing up to the heavens, and my eyes closed. I could feel the tears rushing down my face with such a rapid frenzy, yet peaceful free flowing as they tricked down my face, then to my chin and speckled my clothes as they fell downwards in a parade of freedom free fall. I could feel this tremendous release with each tear allowing all of the pain, heartache and sorrow, exit through my entire body and extremities. I found my body swaying to the music deeply immersed, in the collective movement rushing over the 300+ people around me, in a sort of rhythmic soulful dance. I could feel my whole body changing at this very moment, from my insides, my cells on a micro and macro level. It was like the transformation happened within moments, yet the Divine had a plan for me and little did I know that this change was in process for years, I merely realized it as it unfolded before me. Each and every one of us in the theatre was experiencing their own individual transformation and spiritual cleansing, varied by their own past stories, yet united in this collective releasing bath. My tears flowing steady now, and my voice also found its way to sing this slow, yet profound unknown song, growing stronger and stronger with each verse. The strength in my voice surprised even myself, with its robust sound and flow of its words.
RA…..MA…..DA….SA………SA…. SAY……. SO…….. HUNG…..
In this very moment I felt my footing solid on my path, I knew this is where I was supposed to be.
But how did I get here? How did I find myself in a cozy dark rich theatre on 52nd street, in downtown Manhattan in New York City, with 300+ other people I have never met before, at the very first Spirit Masterclass with Gabby Bernstein. Yet I felt so at home, amongst 300 strangers, I felt each one as my fellow brothers and sisters. We bonded thru song, thru our tears, our sorrow, our release and our call to the Divine. Then a most angelic voice rang thru the arches of this beautiful theatre.
………… I am thine………… I… am….. I could simply feel my breath and my pulse hold as this song rang thru this old building and echoed with such grace. I was filled with such happiness and oneness as her voice seems to surround each and every one of us like a warm long-awaited hug. I was to embrace this new change, yet I would be ok. I would later realize that this song and angelic voice came from world re-known singer Jai Jagdeesh, who I would later have the absolute pleasure of meeting in person. Oh, how her song radiated thru my body. I could see her song affecting each and every one of us. I found myself at peace, and in flow with my mind, my body and my soul. It was like all the pieces finally came together yet, I knew this feeling before. I had felt it many, many years ago as a young girl. This fully tranquil feeling of being home. Soulfully aware of the essence my being, the longing of my heart and the trueness of my soul. I felt free and tranquil as if I could reach the heavens. It had been years since I felt this type of serenity and peacefulness and thought of a time years ago when I was 12 years old, in a small round ornate church in Pisa Italy. I recalled the song of a priest and a small collection of nuns, singing that echoed thru the church halls that slowly engulfed its every room and its golden dome. It touched my heart and resonated in my soul for years, which I can remember at a moment’s notice. This deep feeling of complete acceptance and happiness that radiated thru out my entire body. This was it! I could feel the same oneness and craved for more, much much more, but my mind was racing. How did I find myself here? After all of these years, how did I get here so many years later? So unannounced, so unguided, and undetermined. This was so divinely executed…. I sat down and realized that I had been on the journey unwittingly for years. My soul had craved to go back to this divine place of peace and soulful knowing, but I had not been willing to engage for many years thinking I knew what was best. That I was in control and it was up to me to properly navigate my path. My spiritual journey really took flight unbeknownst to me, years earlier on the top-level floor of the Indigo Chapters store at Yorkdale Mall in Toronto Ontario. I had just had a pretty intense meeting with my financial advisor and was wandering the store in a trance reviewing all of the elements of my life that had culminated into my current financial situation. We have all pondered our situations and how we were lead to our current status and I was no different. Being a single mom, with two kids in university, a mortgaged home, working full time, side part-time work, my immediate family sick with major diseases, and a fledgling side hustle - business, I found myself in the Self-Help Section looking for inspiration. Yes, secretly hoping for that incredible miracle that would impact my life. Oh, how I had prayed and asked for some divine guidance… All I wanted was that secret slice of knowledge, that golden nugget, I didn’t know existed. Well little did I know, what the universe had in store for me. For it had heard my calls, and was primed and ready for action