Tears and Triumphs

So with the children seated and their nanna and Martin there for support, I began to tell my beautiful children that I had recently had a doctors check-up and that the doctor had found a lump in my breast. Jade asked, “Is it cancer?” I looked at them both and replied “Yes.” My children’s faces crumbled a bit, as did my heart and they looked towards Martin and their nanna for their reactions. To ease their shock and bring about some positivity into the situation, I let them know straight away that the doctor has said she believed it was caught early, so it was called Early Stage breast cancer. These words were my Hope, I was pinning my life on them. I wanted the children to have that hope as well. I sat on the lounge and my seventeen-year-old baby girl came and cuddled me. Jade was looking up into my eyes with her beautiful blue eyes, as she had so many times in her life. “Are you going to die?” she asked me. The tears are streaming down my face as I write these words now, as I can still see the pain in her eyes, as she wondered if her mum was going to live or not. My words to her were “I really don’t know, but from what the doctor says, it was caught early which gives me a good chance and that’s what we have to hold on to baby."