Some people 'find' themselves through God.
Others achieve this through long distance travel, either walking the Camino del Santiago or visiting the great pyramids in Egypt.
Then there are people (like me) who get to know their real selves through astrology and prior to that genealogy.
Everyone though had one thing in common- they all went searching for their selves after trauma or heartache of some description.
When I first discovered my ancestors and read about their many trials and tribulations via the ancestry website I was dumbfounded.
Their hidden secrets (or so they thought) were now exposed for all to see thanks to the advances in technology, these historical records were now online.
There were bigamous marriages, prostitution, many early deaths as well as some who went into the workhouse and one who had spent 18 years in the asylum.
As I transferred the information from the database of my ancestry into my modern astrological software I met many aspects of my own current character, and in fact my own 'shadow'.
Parts of which I was yet to master.
Many of the ancestors were gifted in ways we still don't understand, even in this modern age-namely they were psychic, healers and visionaries.
As I discovered more about the ancestors through their birth and death charts I also discovered more about myself and 'who' and 'what' was operating within me and through me.
Science calls this DNA I call it Karma.
Along with their blood and genes I had inherited their unfulfilled desires ,their repressed parts, their unresolved conflicts as well as memories.
Let's hope I can bring resolution to these matters that are still outstanding once and for all and by the time I come to pass I have achieved everything that I ever wanted to..just so as my children and future generations can fulfil their own desires and not have to fulfil mine first.
I am not alone, we are all spiritual seekers and how we find our own truth and peace matters not, only that we find it.