That Friday night, my relatives, my daughter and I, went to the house of one of my aunts for dinner and to play bingo. I was feeling very anxious, and thought I was going to collapse while I was driving. I stopped for a moment and said aloud: "I cannot take this anymore. Blessed Mother, you know what I want, what my heart desires, and at this moment I give you my fears, everything is in your hands, whatever you want". I actually surrender at that moment, I put in Her hands everything I wanted and simply trusted the will of the Virgin Mary. When I told Her that I was giving up and ask Her to do whatever She wanted, I felt my worries dissolve and I began to feel calmer. It was like releasing a large stone that I had been carrying for months and, instead of worrying, I devoted my attention to appreciate what I already had and to thank for my life as it was at that moment.
We spent a few hours sharing and playing bingo, on an outdoor terrace, when suddenly I felt something hit my right leg, I gazed and saw a very bright silver medal, and felt an intense gut feeling. I looked everywhere but nobody was close so I started to wonder how the medal got on my leg. Somewhere inside me, I knew that medal was a message from the Blessed Mother for my trust to Her, but I was so surprise and overwhelmed that I took the medal between my right hand and remained motionless for a few minutes. I remember that I felt dazed and was waiting to see if it had been an allusion.
Still sitting in the chair, I opened my hand and there it was, a gleaming silver medal, that changed my life completely. Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal shone in my hand, with rays of light coming from her hands and the inscription that reads: "Oh Mary conceived without sin, pray for us that we turn to you". On the reverse, a large M with a cross on it, twelve stars around it and below the sacred hearts. I did not know what to think, my mind was blank but my heart and soul felt an indescribable joy.
We spend a lot of time in our lives thinking that we are not enough, that happiness never comes, that we are alone, that we need the approval of others to feel loved, so we must earn the love of others. Receiving that medal changed my perception in seconds, as I realized that each and every one of us is enough and we are loved by God and the Virgin Mary, just as we are. With all my mistakes, my doubts, fears, insecurities and even lack of faith on many occasions, the Blessed Mother showed that Her love for me is such, that at the time I decided to give Her the free-way to guide me, instead of judging me, she loved me to the point that she sent me a medal of miracles so that I would always remember that, as I asked her, she is taking care of everything in my life, guiding and protecting me.
Without going into detail of how the medal appeared, I asked aloud to everyone in the terrace, if someone had dropped the medal, and the answer was no. No one had a medal of the Virgin of the Miraculous Medal or seen that one. At that point I didn’t know whether to cry or laugh with emotion, I pressed the medal against my chest and spend the rest of the night laughing nervously and giving thanks to the Blessed Mother for such a wonderful gift. I couldn’t believe that the Virgin Mary loved me so much to send me a medal to comfort me, but she does, she loves me as well as she loves you. From that moment I wear the medal hanging on my chain, it is the most special gift and I would carry it with me for the rest of my life.
There you can see that you are worth of love just because you are here, alive, in this moment, in this world. This medal is a huge lesson of unconditional love for me and I hope for you too. Even if you are experiencing some negative experience in any area of your life, you must be aware that every experience is teaching you love, forgiveness, receiving and giving. And it’s also teaching you to heal those perceptions and past wounds that are holding you back and don’t serve you anymore for your happiness and higher purpose. That experience with the miraculous medal, helped me heal my perception of unconditional love and my effort to have control and want things to happen quickly and in the time that I think should happen. But above all, I heal my perception of not being enough to receive unconditional love.