Acquiesce to Love Peace Gratitude

I was still listening to the tapping and the hypnosis sessions when another email arrived, this time, from Mary Morrissey. She mentioned her book titled, ‘Feel Free’. It was an incredible programme, I took notes to be able to refer to them later, in case I had missed something. I hadn’t heard this approach from anybody else, of if anybody had explained it, it hadn’t entered my mind. Mary began to talk about the importance of being aware of thoughts. Until then, I never thought about my thoughts, I had never been aware of what I thought. Good or negative thoughts came and went and I never had paid any attention to them. I followed her instructions meticulously about being aware of what you are aware. By doing so, I discovered that my mind was full of debris, like I imagine outer space, remnants of satellites pieces floating in the darkness. Thoughts that aggravated the anxiety, anger and resentment; in this instance, my subconscious mind debris from the immediate past and distant past causing havoc with my emotions. Old wounds that had re-open without my conscious knowledge. I began to analyse every thought that arrived into my conscious mind, especially during those hours when I couldn’t sleep. No wonder I was a fluff ball of stress, like a magnet attracting more stress. The thoughts were jumbled up, a road race of new and old thoughts, painful memories and experiences, all coming and going in total disarray. I couldn’t control my mind at all. Money thoughts, betrayal thoughts, defiant thoughts. The very next day I read the notes I had taken. I decided to take a step at a time. Initially, I would pay attention to each thought without judgement, I would listen to what my mind had to say, and based on those findings, I would go back to the Tapping and hypnosis sessions to minimise and calm down the anxiety.