April 1, 2003
I wanted to ask you if you would have lunch with me on Friday. That was the reason for my calling. Since I can’t talk to you, I will write. I enjoyed hearing your voice even if only for a minute.
This is what I want. I want to mother you. I want to cook good food for you. I want to help you with your homework. I want to be a vital part of your life. I want all good things for you (and for everyone). I want to do fun things with you and explore new places. I want to walk in the woods with you. I want to meet your friends. I want to provide good things and good space for you. I want to open us up to a bigger world. I want to put my arms around you and tell you that I love you.
You are my son and I am your mother.
I left because I was being put-down by my husband on a daily basis and I realized that was not good for you, him, or me. You are still my responsibility. I accept the fact that you are probably hurt and angry because I left. I tried to explain without creating a scene. I didn’t know how to get you to listen. I am here for you and love you with all my heart.
In Reflections, the second book of the Cabin Lessons series, Grace returns to her childhood home to live with her parents and prepare for her divorce. While there, she reaches for her son, Justin, with calls and letters. Through writing, Grace expresses her sadness about being separated from Justin and her fears of starting life anew after years of marriage, and finds a way to trust in the light that promises peace.
About the Author
Janet L. Furst is the author of Everyday Truth of a Rainbow Woman, prequel to the Cabin Lessons series, and Cabin Lessons: A River, Book I. A mother and grandmother, she lives with her partner in southern West Virginia and writes for self-understanding.