David beats Goliath

After a little while, still without a job, I started to read books by Anthony Robbins, and after this I started to read and listen to audio books by Eugen Simon, Andreas Winter and many similar authors.
This was the time when David started to think about beating Goliath. Once the goal was born, it had to be realized, so I started focusing on it every single day from there on in. I had all time in the world to think about myself, and about my life to date. Like I mentioned before, my life had been wonderful up to that point and I was one of the richest people on earth. I had lots of wealth, some nice material things, good friends and a loving family: what else would a fortunate person need, I thought.
So I started to think that everything I had done up to then was great, but it could be so much better! The big question now was: what do I have to do to make my life even better?
As I said, I had started to read Anthony Robbins, Eugen Simon, H.P. Zimmermann, Andreas Winter and many more of these authors writing about positive thinking. It started out this way: I always read all the books by an author. For example, Andreas Winter is a German psychologist who helped me get over feeling afraid of other people. By other people I mean that we all have fears that started pretty much when we were born, these fears came from our parents, family members, the people around us, our own mind etc. These fears tend to arise whenever we face an obstacle and they are very difficult to overcome.
Before I read the books and listened to the audio books by Andreas Winter, I always had problems understanding what Anthony Robbins was talking about in his book Awaken The Giant In You, maybe it was because my English or Italian was not good enough to fully understand what his words really meant. Andreas Winter helped me to understand them much better and I started to forgive myself, directly and in the first person, and also to forgive some of the actions that I had taken in the past. But even with this new attitude, I hadn't understood clearly what all this would mean for me.
These fears had given me a very hard time, so I badly wanted them to disappear for good. I started thinking about what I could do to lose my fears. I had lived with these fears my entire life and almost all of them originate from the same source. Everything was to do with fear of taking action and fear of not having enough money to survive, let alone to do fun things in life. What a stupid way of thinking, of letting fear rule you, even when you can see and feel that you have more than others: you feel good, you are wealthy, you have no pain, you can go on vacation whenever you want, you can buy whatever you want whenever you want. I have had to learn to let go of these fears so they would be gone forever, and to be able to do this, I listened to all the audio books by Andreas Winter. And yes, my fears are all gone. I'm a different person now and I live my life so much better than before.
All of these authors always state: “Take action!” But what does taking action mean when you don't know where to start? Not knowing where to start taking action comes from the fear of doing something wrong in life, about what others might do and say against you and your way of being.
I always wanted a life in the fast lane, the slow stuff didn’t appeal. I always thought, when I have the right idea then I will start, but I never thought about what I really wanted to do, and what I really wanted in my life.