This is my life, and what the hell happened to it?
Do you feel that your life is out of control and that one more loss is too much to handle? Do you obsessively try to control your world into a safe and loving place? Do you obsessively worry about your tomorrows and all the “what ifs”? Do have issues with trust or emotional intimacy with others? Do you carry anger toward other people, places, and things that may be a part of your past? Do you feel that you are fighting just to survive? Do you long for true love and belongingness? Do you feel emotionally that you are not safe? Do you doubt yourself and your abilities to live life your way? Do you worry that if people found out who you truly are, they will reject you? Do you feel that you need to earn others’ respect? Do you constantly feel shame and guilt just because you exist? Are you consistently trying to prove that you are worthy? Do you consistently isolate when times get hard? Do you focus on fitting in rather than sharing who you are? Do you compulsively drink, do drugs, exercise, eat, starve, etc. to kill the pain of anxiety? Do you struggle with initiating new projects or perhaps keeping a job?
This then is the legacy of childhood trauma. It represents the obstacles we all face as we take our journey into healing. You can overcome. We all can.
About the Author
Lisa is an Educational Psychologist who specialized in human development. She has been a college professor, a grief educator, an advocate for cancer patients, a group facilitator sharing common reactions to natural disaster following Hurricane Irene, as well as educating adults about predictable patterns of development following childhood trauma and loss.