“Do you know you are going to die someday?”
I was surprised to hear this question from my
friend. I was only eight years old at the time, and I felt I
would live forever.
Here it was, a lovely summer day, and we were in our
favorite spot in my backyard, under the grapevine, which
was covered with grapes. Elly was reaching up for another
bunch of purple grapes. “Yes,” she went on, her big, brown
eyes looking into my blue ones. “It will happen, and you
should think about such things.”
I wondered how well-versed she was in these matters,
as she was two years older than I and attended a religious
school. We did not attend church or even own a Bible. My
parents rarely discussed religion.
It was 1940, and the sky was blue, the sun a rich, buttery
yellow. Today, the sun seems a lighter yellow. Could the
scientists be right, and the sun may be burning itself out?
I had yet to answer Elly’s question. When her mother’s
stern voice called her home, she arose and was gone in a
flash.
I sat on the grass, thinking about what Elly had said,
and I decided to go in search of my mother. I found her
in the kitchen. She had washed the curtains and had them
drying on a wooden platform called a curtain stretcher. It
had pins around the edges and held the curtains in place
until they dried. She was now washing the windows, and
the sun coming in was adding golden highlights to her soft,
brown hair.
I remember our house always sparkled; my mother
seemed to enjoy housecleaning very much. I think she liked
it better than cooking, as I don’t remember many of her
dishes that I loved. I was very thin and not interested in
food, which was a worry for her.
As I called to my mother, she looked up at me with her
sparkling, green eyes and that beautiful, white smile that I
loved so much. “Mother, am I going to die?”
She was startled by my question and asked who I had
been discussing such things with. I explained about my
conversation with Elly under the grapevine.
My mother took me onto her lap and said, “You are not
to worry. It will only happen when you are very, very old,
and by then, you won’t even care, because you will have lived
many, many years and be very, very tired.” When we heard
a group of friends starting a game of hide and seek, my
mother gave me a loving shove and said, “Now go and join
your friends.”
Traffic was slow on our unpaved dead-end street. I went
outside in a happy frame of mind to see a group of friends
gathered around the iceman’s open-bed truck. He had
gone into a house to deliver a large, fifty-cent piece of ice.
To receive ice, a family would put a card in their window
denoting which size of ice they wanted.
When he was gone, we would jump up onto the truck to
gather small pieces of ice to place in our mouths. It felt so
cool on a hot summer day. With no refrigerators, the ice was
very important for our iceboxes. The icebox held a large pan
underneath to catch the melted water. We needed to empty it
often before the pan overflowed—which it sometimes did!
The young man came back out of the house holding his
large ice tongs and yelling at us kids to get off of his truck.
We found this very fun and exciting.
When the “rag man” came down our street, we were a
little leery. He was an old man and not friendly. He came
down our street with a horse and wagon, calling, “Any rags
for sale?” He stopped when someone came outside with
bundles of old clothes and other materials. I heard he made
rag carpets out of the rags he bought. Some of the mothers
would remind us to be good or we could be sold too.
We could hear the “soap box operas” coming from the
open windows. Our mothers had the radios on as they
worked. We heard Ma Perkins, Just Plain Bill, Amos and Andy,
and Our Gal Sunday, stories that continued each day and
kept our mothers interested.
With friends and relatives living in the vicinity, we had
people stop by often. We had no telephones to call and see
if the time was appropriate; we were just happy to see them,
no appointment necessary.