Crystal was a transmedium, this is someone who goes into deep trance and has spirits speak through her voice box. She works in partnership with her husband who counts her down into trance and who brings her back. When she is giving the session, she is lying down on a hammock, eyes closed and her voice changes. She speaks in an ancient dialect that cannot be easily pinpointed. She says she has a group of spirits that speak as one coming through her, and this is why. Her private sessions take place in her home but how I came to know of her was through her small inner circle group work where she travelled to people's homes where they gathered in small groups.
At the time, me and a girl friend named Alexa were contemplating going through fertility treatments, my friend had a husband, I was doing it as a single parent. Her and I both had vivid dreams we used to discuss and out of all my friends at the time, she and I could openly share our gifts. Although neither of us were 'developed' psychics, we could read the signs and interpret our dreams, and we were confident in our assessments. But despite our closeness, I still held back certain information about those I knew on the other side but never knew here. After having attended one of Crystal's groups, Alexa passed on my name and I was given permission to contact this woman. She agreed to see me.
Having known that her group sessions were recorded, I asked that my session be recorded. They were hesitant and the answer was, "We will record it because we feel you are here for good reasons, but when we re-listen to it, if there is anything we feel may be incriminating, we will delete it." Agreed. They said that I was able to ask as many questions that I wanted in the one hour time slot but to be mindful of not repeating myself.
Her husband counted her back ten through one, and the first thing he asked her was, "Can you please provide a welcome statement for Leanne." This opening statement talked all about my heart chakra and my connection with nature, and how I was in a transition time from cleaning away my past to make room for new thoughts and possibilities.
Thank goodness it was recorded because at the time of the reading, I wanted proof instantly, so I wasn't overly interested in the opening statement nor was I prepared for the voice change and her style. Initially, I was overcome by the drama of this reading, a woman in trance speaking to me about my life in another accent than the one I met her in was wild, and because I hadn't had much contact with mediums in the past, I felt this experience was either the real deal or a total fraud.
And so I ignored the opening statement and when I was told to speak, I asked a question to see which one she was, real or fraud? Standing on the fence wanting to believe yet mindful of the proverbial 'Charlatan,' in a somewhat critical yet humble tone I heard myself speak, "So who are my guides?"
At the time, I had not yet read anything on metaphysics, angels or spirit guides but in my dreams, whenever I was going through something difficult, there was always a young male holding me, giving me a kiss, always there in my time of sorrow. In fact, the contrast between my sadness and loneliness while awake, and my sense of comfort and romance while asleep led me to believe I was married in another dimension. If this woman is the real deal, she will be able to shed light on this.
And yes she did, instantly, she responded, "You have a male protector guide who stands behind you, he has dark hair to the shoulders and he wears it free, his name is Francesco." I started to cry almost uncontrollably. She said he has been with me since the beginning and will stay with me until the end, that we have had many lifetimes together in different roles, and always a great relationship. She listed off some of the past lives we had in different sexes and roles, and I could connect to this information easily.
As she spoke, I listened, and with every question I had, a helpful and accurate message was given. When the reading was over, I felt quite whole and connected. I still had to walk my path, which involved making big decisions and overcoming big emotions, but the last words she said to me kept me centred and still does.
Once out of trance, I shared with her how I had recently lost my two pet babies, Calvin and Chloe, and the sadness I was undergoing, and she said, "Your loved ones are all on the ferris wheel with you, they hear you and are well as you speak with them often, you know this."
There was definitely a karmic connection between Crystal and I, when I met her in person I was amazed how I had painted her in a painting I made seven years prior. After our meeting, synchronistically on the same evening, we both picked up a shared past life, it came to me in a dream while she picked it up in meditation along with a repeated image of a white lion she kept seeing. This prompted an email from her and a further meeting for coffee at her day job, a week after our session.
Over coffee and at her desk-she was the owner of a business- she did my numerology and was able to see my path as a 'Sage' but at the time, after having been so driven academically and professionally, all I was interested in hearing about was when I would get pregnant and start my family. The white lion she kept seeing and mentioning, for me, meant my child to come but for her it felt related to psychic work. When not in trance, Crystal was not picking up on children, and had to do what every ethical and compassionate psychic must do, find the best way to not break someone's hopes but still give them purpose. After all, we are not gods and there is always a possibility of misinterpreting our symbols. Nevertheless, her words still ring strongly today, "What I wish for you is total detachment, surrender Dear One." I had yet to be on the
spiritual path so to speak so hearing words like detachment and surrender were not the least bit comforting and the HARDEST task to accomplish, yet they were the wisest words that continued to echo in the days, weeks, months and years to come.
Despite having a sinking feeling that motherhood in the traditional sense was not going to happen for me, I still decided to pursue my goal of becoming a single parent using anonymous donor sperm. I booked my first fertility treatment one month after my session and the universe found a way to block this treatment. Out of nowhere, although dealing with a reputable company, there were legal complications with the country I had ordered the sperm from. Not being easily deterred, I changed donor companies and booked a month later and was scheduled to be inseminated on my 40th birthday.
A few days before my first fertility treatment, my grandfather came to visit me in a dream and when I asked him what he thought about me having a kid, he responded, "Forget about it. You are an artist and entrepreneur."
Although the signs were there, I did not give up hope and over the next couple of years I became a medical miracle at the fertility clinic for NOT getting pregnant.
A week after my 44th birthday, 27 years later on the day of my grandfather's passing and four years after his visitation in my dream, I was scheduled to give a lecture to a group of women entrepreneurs, and it was at this presentation when I came out of the spiritual closet and my Real magic began.
It was my time to pay it forward.